Welcome to Cabaret~!

Yesterday, my school (mainly the chorus and band people) had a cabaret. So, we'd sing a series of songs in this performance and do our best to sing well.

However, I didn't feel like I was enjoying it. Rather, I was pretty 'bummed out'. Compared to me, the soloists were the stars on stage, and y'know, I can't help but try to out-beat them. But at the same time, I felt like as if the effort I putted into my singing was nothing compare to theirs. They had the wavy-like thing in their voice when they sing long notes, and they get the pitches right, too. My voice was so tiny, and so squeaky and annoying, compared to theirs I felt with me singing in the choir, it'll make no difference.

My voice is so pathetic...

I know that I shouldn't hit myself so down, but I've been compared all my life. Either I was the best or the worst, was what my father taught me. And it's a natural thing for teenagers to do in my age.

I just wish it wouldn't hurt as much...

And y'know, I barely have any friends in school. Spade disappears and never notices me, Diamond never talks to me, Clubs never has time to met up with me.

IS IT THIS HARD TO HAVE A FRIEND?

I'm gonna be honest to you guys, I have never felt like this is my life. Or at least, in a very long time.
I'm so sick and tired of this. Class is about to be over, so bye.

---Prima

Spade and Clubs

I swear, my friend Spade really fits her image. AND UGH. IT PISSES ME OFF.

I walked throughout the WHOLE entire school just to look for her ass, and wasted pretty much my time. Da. Hell.

I picked out her nickname wonderfully... Baka-Spade.

And Clubs. Phew, she's hard to stalk. One minute you turn a corner, she disappeared. She was wearing a realllly cute pink sweat :D

...

I have no idea why I noticed that. But moving on.

Those two have the greatest nicknames ever, and it fits them. My God, I've never got nicknames right, but damn this time I got them just right.

So now, since Spade is missing and Clubs disappeared from my sight, I'm sitting in a study room and playing the games I saved on my computer.

Ciao.

--CardmasterPurima

Earth/Space Essay (ONCE MORE?!)

WHY. WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY

Why do I ALWAYS forget about this class!?

Ugh, I just remembered this morning that we had this Earth/Space essay thingy and I DID NOT study at all. Much less use the 3x5 card (I never really wrote anything on it; I forgot what to do with it in the first place).

I seriously need to study more in this class.

The way I remember things is by paying attention to class and it saves me a lot (except for the missing projects ehehehe...). So, there are times when I would have this flashback moment and remember things. Like there was this one time, my Earth Teacher would say, "Ha, well, when you get kids and they say why did the winds blow, tell them it's because the sun shines."

Ohmygodthatwassofreakinawesome.

Okay, I've been looking through the essay questions I missed, annnnnnndddd

I'm betting my grade will be between a C+ and a D-.

Cause I used them in the right place, like air pressure and formation of clouds, buuuuttt not how I explained them. I mean, seriously, I'm not the brightest tool in the shed, but man am I dumb.

Alright, time to watch the adorable Castiel moments on youtube or whatevers...

Ciao.

---Not-Really-Smart Purima

Communication Styles

Hello to all of you blogging people and others who stalk me but never comments (I feel lonely here... lol)

I learned something today! (I learn something new everyday thought...)

Communication Styles

I really like Human Behaviors; it's fun, interesting, and it'll defiantly help me become a great detective when I grow up. From introverts and extroverts, from Maslow's theory. Everything just interest me and I feel happy/excited/holycow:O whenever I learn something from this class.

Today we learned about, as mentioned, communication styles. There are three types: Passive, Aggressive, and Assertive. There are also passive-aggressive (which are sneaky, manipulative people; basically a two-faced person).

Passive people are kinda like me. They're mostly introverted (extroverts can be passive sometimes, too!), and they just go with the flow. I keep imagining Castiel (from Supernatural and just so you know, I was talking about the tv show). HE'S JUST. SO. FREAKIN. CUTEEEE

*rambles on about Castiel's 'innocence'*

...and that voice! I mean, that voice. How on Earth can he be born with such a voice? He really is an angel, I say--

*get's smacked by a blogger*

HOLY CASS-- That hurted QoQ

*ahem*

Okay, back on topic. Basically, Passive people are people who are quiet, and they always follow a crowd. Whenever they face a decision, they would run away and avoid it at all cost; Passive people don't do well in conflicts or troublesome problems.

Aggressive people are a whole 'nother story. They're like the complete opposite of Passive people; in fact, they love Passive-type people. Aggressive people are, as it's title suggests, really mean people. I guess in simple words, excuse my language, a real 'bitch' (or a'dick' if he's a guy). My H.B. teacher talked about this one time where he had a conference with a boy in his class. Mr. Teacher said that the father's child wouldn't pay attention to class, and is always taking up the class's time. The father agrees whole-heartedly at once, nodding his head and agreeing. When the father and Mr. Teacher needed to talk to the boy, in which he was talking to another fellow teacher, the boy instantly looked away and ran up to another teacher to talk to, completely avoiding the father and Mr. Teacher.

And you know what happened?

The father letted him go. He didn't do a single thing. And Mr. Teacher was... upset. I know it's weird, but would you be upset when you see a friend being flat-out ignored by a family relative? The father was a passive person; he let's his son do what ever he wants, he let's his son walk all over him.

And the world knows that's not right.

And the son was an Aggressive type person. Defiantly, by the way he walks all over his father and not paying attention to class.

I'm glad Mr. Teacher is kinda Assertive. I mean, he's nice, yet mean. He has this boundary between teacher and student, and teacher and friend. He's not letting a student become too close to him. I kinda find that hurtful; my intentions on being friends it pretty clean and honest. It's usually the reason why I have a lot of friends, grownup or not.

Assertive people are what you might want to be. They're the type of people who puts the boundaries on a person, and have confidence in themselves(not too much; you'll probably end up being Aggressive). Basically, a well-rounded person.

Most people are usually Passive and Aggressive, but there are a fair amount of Assertive-type people also. So you should try striving for being Assertive, and maybe look back on your life using the info you learned.

And wao.

*takes a deep breath*

My goodness, I gave out another lecture. Ahaa, well I've given lectures worth an hour; maybe I should consider being a substitute teacher? Wouldn't that be a good experience.

Mahh, life is still young for me, I'll consider it once I grow up.

Ciaoooo

---Purima-sensei

I Got Chills

I got chills... they're multiplying...

And I'm loooosing contro-ol.

'Cause the powerrr that your supplying.

IT'S ELECTRIFYING. (Electrify, electrify, electrify...)

You better shape up! (Oo, oo, oo~) 'Cause I need a man (Oo, oo, oo~)

And my heart is set on you~

You better shape u~up

You gotta understand!

With my heart, I must be true~ Oo~ (Nothing left, nothing left for me to do...)

*continues singing with a Tsuna-doll*

--purimadesu

HEYYYYAYYYAYAYAYYYAYYY

HEYYYYYAYYYAYAYAYYY *epic echo*

PENNNCILLARRGGG

AHAHAHAH ASIHDLASJD WHA- WAH-WAH AI CAN'T WAIT ANYLONGER

*flips a mass amount of tables*

VROIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!! >0<

OMGOMGOMG I JUST READ THE NEW CHAPTER OF KHR.

OH GOD.

OH GOODDDD.

IT'S

JUST

TO

a w e s o m e

qwq

--TOOMASSIVLYEXTREMEFANGIRLINGTOEVENCARE

MAGNET SAMMBBAA

I SWEAR, THIS SONG IT'S. JUST. TOO. Asjdhalkjsdhcnjkjkd

*splutters nonsense*

I especially love the Kaito and Gakupo version. Not like I'm saying the one by Miku and Luka is bad, I just like yaoi more than yuri.

Kufufu.

Alright, enough spack-dab, and let's start doing the samba.

---Samba-Dancing Purima

Makin' Music

I'm starting to get use to using Musicshake.com to make random music. It's so fun! So far, I've made A New Jaze, Can You Dance?, Dark Circuit, After The Finale, and Dancing Your Life Away.

However, there just short songs in the moment. They only last about 2 minutes long or so. I think Dark Circuit is about 3 minutes.

I should post some on here. And set the mood and stuff. XD

---Musical Purimaa

Lack of Friends

I want more friends.
(\_____/)
(● q v q ●)
^Honestly. Look at my poor pikachu face! I need some sort of friendship with females. It's essential to my social life. I mean, Spade is my friend, but she's been ignoring me, and AlchemistD isn't talking to me. (AlchemistD is... a guyfriend...? IDK!) 

I feel so bored and empty and hungry. I won't be surprised if I ended up gaining a couple of pounds this week because of the amount of food I've been eating. 

Seriously serious. I need a, like, a friend. Like, seriously.

Or else you'll, like, seriously get headaches from listening to me.

-----Like, I'm Purima.

Mirai Nikki

OTAY, so I mentioned it before that I've read, ketword: READ, the manga Mirai Nikki aka Future Diary. I'm pretty sure it's an anime, since I watched an episode.

I swear, Yuno Gasai is one hardcore yandere.

Times like these makes me wonder if there are real yandere people out there. I mean, I myself is a dandere, which is the type of girl that doesn't talk much and is all warm and bright to people they know they're not shy around. Yup.

Yandere: Cute on the outside, psychotic on the inside. Especially if they're in love.
Tsundere: Mean on the outside, cute on the in.
Dandere: Who's quiet on the outside, but spontaneously awesome on the in.

So. Yay. My japanese vocabulary is improving!

Oh, so now Carrot is  reading Mirai Nikki, and is freaking out every 2 seconds because he thought Yuno was a mind reader. He'll understand one day.

One day.

*sighs*

Alright. So Mirai Nikki is insane yet interesting and kinda... realistic (like as in, it could happen, but not really). Not sure about Higurashi. I'll check it out later.

And hopefully won't puke my guts out.

Oh, here's a picture for you:

---- Nikki Purima!

Higurashi ~When They Cry

Doesn't it sound romantic? I heard the song 'Dear You' and thought this must be a sweet anime/manga, like Kobato or Kimi ni Todoke.

But no.

It's the complete freakin' opposite.

How did they get from innocent normal people:

To this: 

 AHAHAHA-- Whut? Well, I haven't watched the anime or read the manga yet, so I have no right to judge. But really? REALLY? WHAT IS THIS? MIRAI NIKKI ALL OVER AGAIN?

...

I guess that's a yes...

---Mirai Purima