Heart-Stopping Moment

HE'S.

HE.

AFJKLHDFLK--

whut.

WHUT.

DUN LOOK AT ME LIEK DAT.

That Sorta Hurts

I was standing next to him. And he didn't even glance at me. I was waiting, y'know, that he'd turn and say,

"Oh, hi there."

But I didn't hear anything from you. You just distracted yourself with talking with that other girl, eh? Too busy, to even glance at me. Too focused.

We both know what's going on here.

What's even more unlikable is that you know I knew about this.

Stop avoiding me already.

Stop playing this stupid game against me.

Cause I'm going to lose if you keep this up...

...

I've Been Thinking

There are a lot of things I went through in life. And just like everyone else, I know how it feels. I know this is kinda stupid to say, but I'm sensitive to emotions. (...ah, well. Not always ;v;)

If you ask about have I ever considered suicide. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever tried to kill myself. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever felt abandoned, broken, alone. I'd answer yes.

I could bet that most people would doubt that, that I had a good life, a good home, a well-thought future. To tell you the truth, I did most of the work. I already knew this was going to happen. I already knew that one day, I'm going to deal with alot of pain caused by other people. Whut? Other people? What am I talking about?

Ever heard of 'sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me'?

Aha! But that's just a passing thought. All pain heals over time, and wounds would fade to become scars and simple scratches. Alot of people think that their scars are ugly things, and represents how much they've been hurt, mentally and physically.

But I like my scars. (Which is weird to say lol)

I can't explain it well. I'll put myself in your shoes for abit. Alright. So, here I am, in your shoes. You're smiling, so stop it. This isn't funny!

Alright, so you're not exactly the positive type like me. You're more... normal.

You like doing silly things, hanging out, and the sort that other people would think you're weird. You don't wear make-up much(if you are girl), but would apply some mascara every now and then. But from this 'daytime' personality you, you're much more darker. You're afraid of falling again. You don't like to let others come too close to you, because you don't know if they'll hurt you. Yet, you unconsciously do it, because you secretly want them to heal your wounds.

Ahhh, what am I doing here? It's too boring!

Ever thought that others had also share the same pain as you? What is this? Oh, what do we have here...? A heart! Omg, it's your heart. Oh, god look at it. It's moving. *poke* ASDAFDSDJLFHADFH IT MOOOOVVEEEDDD

...

I'm just gonna leave you're body now. ;v;

Oh well, you seem pretty normal. It's weird cause I have the same thing. Except my 'daytime' personality is literally my personality as whole. It weird isn't it?

We share the same pain, even experienced it, yet why do I have seem to have a better way of handling my life? Don't instantly think it's because I was born positive.

I was already aware that others had a really painful life. I know it's stupid for me to consider other people, but since I know what they feel, would it hurt for me to try to be there for them?

The problem is, I'm not exactly what you're looking for.

I'm not your prince charming. (I wish I was a guy though. Wouldn't hurt to be gay either :D)

I'm a girl, who knows what you're going through. I'm like... your fairy god mother. Or one of the seven little dwarfs. Or Dory from Finding Nemo. (whut)

Ah, well. I'm just saying that if you want help, look at me. For the love of god, I'm the only one waiting here for someone. (I'll even dress up as Death at your funeral whut am I saying...?)

But I'm not a mind reader (...=.=) so I don't really know what's going to happen unless you tell me.

I could just listen to you, I could tell you my point-of-view, and I could even punch that guy in the face (although, I'm not a big fan of fights ;w;).

All you gotta do, is come up to me. Steal me. Sit me down. And start talking (I'm serious lol).

But if you don't, that's fine...

...just proves that everybody has their heads stuck in fairy-tale land. :I

Mirai Nikki

OTAY, so I mentioned it before that I've read, ketword: READ, the manga Mirai Nikki aka Future Diary. I'm pretty sure it's an anime, since I watched an episode.

I swear, Yuno Gasai is one hardcore yandere.

Times like these makes me wonder if there are real yandere people out there. I mean, I myself is a dandere, which is the type of girl that doesn't talk much and is all warm and bright to people they know they're not shy around. Yup.

Yandere: Cute on the outside, psychotic on the inside. Especially if they're in love.
Tsundere: Mean on the outside, cute on the in.
Dandere: Who's quiet on the outside, but spontaneously awesome on the in.

So. Yay. My japanese vocabulary is improving!

Oh, so now Carrot is  reading Mirai Nikki, and is freaking out every 2 seconds because he thought Yuno was a mind reader. He'll understand one day.

One day.

*sighs*

Alright. So Mirai Nikki is insane yet interesting and kinda... realistic (like as in, it could happen, but not really). Not sure about Higurashi. I'll check it out later.

And hopefully won't puke my guts out.

Oh, here's a picture for you:

---- Nikki Purima!

Higurashi ~When They Cry

Doesn't it sound romantic? I heard the song 'Dear You' and thought this must be a sweet anime/manga, like Kobato or Kimi ni Todoke.

But no.

It's the complete freakin' opposite.

How did they get from innocent normal people:

To this: 

 AHAHAHA-- Whut? Well, I haven't watched the anime or read the manga yet, so I have no right to judge. But really? REALLY? WHAT IS THIS? MIRAI NIKKI ALL OVER AGAIN?

...

I guess that's a yes...

---Mirai Purima

What is love? ;A;

DERP ALERT.

I don't know what's happening! Maybe this is just a simple 'wanting-a-big-brother' thing? Maybe that's why my hearts beats fast? Maybe is that it?

UGH SOMEONE JUST TELL ME ALREADY ;A; I'VE NEVER BEEN SO CONFUSED IN MY LIFE.

Is this normal? For a girl to be disillusioned in love? Well, they do say love is blinded. But-but-but-but-but- IDKKKK

;A; I've never felt like this before! It's FRESH! NEW! SOMETHING I'M NOT USED TO.

I've never had a guy pay attention to me. So that's it.

That's why. It's because I'm not use to having a person talk to me. Much less a boy. I've always been avoiding them, but somehow wanting to be friends with them.

The opposite sex is scary to me ;A;

I keep thinking that they're like my dad. That they'll leave me behind and hurt me. WELL LOVE HURTS. I knew that and kept my head out of the clouds 'cause I'm still in high school! ;A; KAMI-SAMA, TASUKETEEEEEE TTATT

WHY-WHY-WHYWWHYWHYWHW

*wails like a walrus*

q^q

I'm going on youtube.

--- Walrus Purima