Okay, my mom has my debit card.
AND SHE SPENT ALL MY MONEY. ALL OF IT. THERE'S ONLY $2 LEFT IN MY ACCOUNT. What the living hell, am I gonna use $2 for, eh?
If she gave me a reasonable reason, then I'll push it aside. BUT REALLY.
$120+ DOWN THE DRAIN.
WASTED
MY
MONEY.
I've never been so upset as much as this.
And it was my card. Mine! I was saving that money for an electric guitar.
I was saving that money...
My money...
Now I'll never get that electric guitar. I'll never save enough money. She always does this, thinking that I'm a child and not being able to do this. This is stupid! I'm willing to say that the money could be spent on food and laundry, but seriously? I would very much like it IF YOU NOTIFIED ME FIRST.
UGH.
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Thursday, March 21, 2013
Saturday, January 19, 2013
I've Been Thinking
There are a lot of things I went through in life. And just like everyone else, I know how it feels. I know this is kinda stupid to say, but I'm sensitive to emotions. (...ah, well. Not always ;v;)
If you ask about have I ever considered suicide. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever tried to kill myself. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever felt abandoned, broken, alone. I'd answer yes.
I could bet that most people would doubt that, that I had a good life, a good home, a well-thought future. To tell you the truth, I did most of the work. I already knew this was going to happen. I already knew that one day, I'm going to deal with alot of pain caused by other people. Whut? Other people? What am I talking about?
Ever heard of 'sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me'?
Aha! But that's just a passing thought. All pain heals over time, and wounds would fade to become scars and simple scratches. Alot of people think that their scars are ugly things, and represents how much they've been hurt, mentally and physically.
But I like my scars. (Which is weird to say lol)
I can't explain it well. I'll put myself in your shoes for abit. Alright. So, here I am, in your shoes. You're smiling, so stop it. This isn't funny!
Alright, so you're not exactly the positive type like me. You're more... normal.
You like doing silly things, hanging out, and the sort that other people would think you're weird. You don't wear make-up much(if you are girl), but would apply some mascara every now and then. But from this 'daytime' personality you, you're much more darker. You're afraid of falling again. You don't like to let others come too close to you, because you don't know if they'll hurt you. Yet, you unconsciously do it, because you secretly want them to heal your wounds.
Ahhh, what am I doing here? It's too boring!
Ever thought that others had also share the same pain as you? What is this? Oh, what do we have here...? A heart! Omg, it's your heart. Oh, god look at it. It's moving. *poke* ASDAFDSDJLFHADFH IT MOOOOVVEEEDDD
...
I'm just gonna leave you're body now. ;v;
Oh well, you seem pretty normal. It's weird cause I have the same thing. Except my 'daytime' personality is literally my personality as whole. It weird isn't it?
We share the same pain, even experienced it, yet why do I have seem to have a better way of handling my life? Don't instantly think it's because I was born positive.
I was already aware that others had a really painful life. I know it's stupid for me to consider other people, but since I know what they feel, would it hurt for me to try to be there for them?
The problem is, I'm not exactly what you're looking for.
I'm not your prince charming. (I wish I was a guy though. Wouldn't hurt to be gay either :D)
I'm a girl, who knows what you're going through. I'm like... your fairy god mother. Or one of the seven little dwarfs. Or Dory from Finding Nemo.(whut)
(I'll even dress up as Death at your funeral whut am I saying...?)
I could just listen to you, I could tell you my point-of-view, and I could even punch that guy in the face (although, I'm not a big fan of fights ;w;).
All you gotta do, is come up to me. Steal me. Sit me down. And start talking (I'm serious lol).
But if you don't, that's fine...
...just proves that everybody has their heads stuck in fairy-tale land. :I
If you ask about have I ever considered suicide. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever tried to kill myself. I'd answer yes.
If you ask about have I ever felt abandoned, broken, alone. I'd answer yes.
I could bet that most people would doubt that, that I had a good life, a good home, a well-thought future. To tell you the truth, I did most of the work. I already knew this was going to happen. I already knew that one day, I'm going to deal with alot of pain caused by other people. Whut? Other people? What am I talking about?
Ever heard of 'sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me'?
Aha! But that's just a passing thought. All pain heals over time, and wounds would fade to become scars and simple scratches. Alot of people think that their scars are ugly things, and represents how much they've been hurt, mentally and physically.
But I like my scars. (Which is weird to say lol)
I can't explain it well. I'll put myself in your shoes for abit. Alright. So, here I am, in your shoes. You're smiling, so stop it. This isn't funny!
Alright, so you're not exactly the positive type like me. You're more... normal.
You like doing silly things, hanging out, and the sort that other people would think you're weird. You don't wear make-up much(if you are girl), but would apply some mascara every now and then. But from this 'daytime' personality you, you're much more darker. You're afraid of falling again. You don't like to let others come too close to you, because you don't know if they'll hurt you. Yet, you unconsciously do it, because you secretly want them to heal your wounds.
Ahhh, what am I doing here? It's too boring!
Ever thought that others had also share the same pain as you? What is this? Oh, what do we have here...? A heart! Omg, it's your heart. Oh, god look at it. It's moving. *poke* ASDAFDSDJLFHADFH IT MOOOOVVEEEDDD
...
I'm just gonna leave you're body now. ;v;
Oh well, you seem pretty normal. It's weird cause I have the same thing. Except my 'daytime' personality is literally my personality as whole. It weird isn't it?
We share the same pain, even experienced it, yet why do I have seem to have a better way of handling my life? Don't instantly think it's because I was born positive.
I was already aware that others had a really painful life. I know it's stupid for me to consider other people, but since I know what they feel, would it hurt for me to try to be there for them?
The problem is, I'm not exactly what you're looking for.
I'm not your prince charming. (I wish I was a guy though.
I'm a girl, who knows what you're going through. I'm like... your fairy god mother. Or one of the seven little dwarfs. Or Dory from Finding Nemo.
I could just listen to you, I could tell you my point-of-view, and I could even punch that guy in the face (although, I'm not a big fan of fights ;w;).
All you gotta do, is come up to me. Steal me. Sit me down. And start talking (I'm serious lol).
But if you don't, that's fine...
...just proves that everybody has their heads stuck in fairy-tale land. :I
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Why I Must Rant
Ranting is good for me. Quite literally. You see, I'm the medium, the peacemaker, the Tsuna-whenever-Gokudera-get's-mad type of person.
But I'm also a let's-hold-it-all-in type of person. Kinda like Benvolio in Romeo and Juliet. But with boobs and no dick. (I'm pretty sure Benvolio is a man...)
But moving on!
I need to rant. There are things in my life I can't understand and I just can't take it anymore. Truth is, I use to have this little diary, where I would put all sort of funky things in it, writing in it like as if the diary itself was my secret messenger to a secret friend. The bad thing was that my mom read it.
Uh.
EVER HEARD OF PRIVACY?
Yes, I'm a teen and I'm probably doing through some funky phase or whatevers, but I want privacy. I'm growing up and I don't wanna be babied. And don't you know how annoying it is that parents say you're too young to do this, but too old to do that? Like you're old enough to do chores on your own, but you're too young to watch a PG13 movie type of thing.
I have nothing against not watching an R rated movie or even doing chores, but privacy is privacy! And my diary is one of them! My mom read it, and even wrote in it. She even talked to me about it. Now look, I'm just writing in it to vent out some anger I had before I came to my senses. The whole purpose I like keeping a diary is to keep secrets and maybe one day look back on all the weird and funny "conversations" I wrote in my diary.
BUT NO.
BECAUSE APPARENTLY, PRIVACY DOESN'T EXSIST IN ANY PARENT'S DICTIONARY.
Here's the truth, I can't keep bottling these feelings up. And I sure as hell ain't gonna express them (damn slipped into a country accent... =.=").
I don't wanna express myself because I'm sick and tired of people asking why I act like that or give me that dirty look.
And I can't keep bottling these feelings up, because just like they said in Healthy Living, it's bad for you.
Ranting online is the only privacy I can get so far. And nothing bad has happened. Everything's normal, no one's coming up to me asking to take down my blog, and I'm not calling out to anyone.
I feel tired and exhausted when I lock my anger down. I'm not assertive, but passive. I'm not extroverted, but introverted. I'm not funky or cool or outstanding. NO.
I'm like the female version of Canada from Hetalia!
So what the bloody hell? (...my English accent... =.=") I rant. And rant. And rant.
To rant or not to rant. Is my question.
I wonder if there's a fan-made Canada blog...?
Moving on...
So, I always lock my anger down. To the very last drop. The VERY. LAST. DROP.
And I exert the here in this little blog called, "Because I Need to Rant".
I'm not a bad person, which is pretty funky 'cause I myself can't tell I'm a good little angel or the evil devil. But I swear I try my best to make everyone my friend. Albeit, it's difficult 'cause the thought of being the one to initiate the conversation is pretty scary. I'm not like that. I tried starting the convo, but it just goes down the drain when they start making the air awkward by not answering me, or never even glancing at me.
Uh. Hello? I'm standing right here and I'm talking to you. Aren't you being alittle bit rude to me? Huh? HUH?!
...
*deep breathe*
I know that people have a hard time making a good convo towards me, but I do make an effort to talk to other people. Because I love to talk. I'm a girl, and I was originally extroverted (I was bullied as a child, so I became introverted) and I just LOVE talking. I don't give a damn if it's about a hot sexy guy or even about books. I just need some sort of communication.
'Cause that's what I lack in life.
I lack communication. In fact, it a huge problem to me and other people. Y'know how teachers just love group work? Well, huzzah! I'm in a group project!
Wonderful!
Truly spectacular!
Annnnndddddd they don't talk much...
Ughh, I worry about my generation. No, screw that, I'm already worried. Most of the kids I've met were so... troubled. I mean, I'm not saying they're bad people, just... people with very bad experiences. I've met nice people, mean people, bitches, lovers, assholes, idiots, morons, nerds, geeks, sport-fanatics, lesbians and gays, and all the colors of the rainbow. Hell, I even met gangsters (or... that was how they referred themselves as...).
But each and everyone of them, I enjoyed talking to. They atleast talked to me, and I can tell they enjoyed talking to me, too. And they would often talk about their family, their friends, their past. And it was either the good life filled with money, or the dark road with parents doing drugs and other bad stuff.
I'm not saying, they're bad people. They grew up badly. We are children, and either we like it or not, we hold the future. And isn't it the adult's responsibility to take care of that child?
My God, looking back on those people, the parents were mostly the cause of the child's misfortune. My dad, the biggest douche bag you've ever met, beat my mother nearly to death while having sex with her. Do you think it's rape even they are married? I think so. And I was only 5 at the time. It was the first time I saw it happen, or maybe it happened for a long time, and I was too young to remember.
To tell you the truth, I was the downfall of their marriage. They were happy, until they got married, and made a baby named lil' Purima (stated in my older posts, I'm not revealing my real name). My dad started drinking more and more, while mom started to love me less and less. She was very hesitant on having me. And I was unaware of this. I was growing in her belly and, now, knowing all about the growth of a baby inside a women, is pretty disturbing. Saying that I was the one who did that funky kicking in her stomach and eating some of the coffee mom drank. *shivers*
So, when I was officially brought into this world, I would cry and cry and cry. I'm pretty sure my tears could put the Mississippi River to shame. I cried when I pooped, when I peed, when I was hungry, when I was sad, or happy, or laughing. And my mom wasn't ready for it.
While momma was taking care of my crying sad and disgusting mess, dad was fooling with other women in a local bar.
A bar.
How can this get any worse? Oh, there's lots to tell.
One day, my mom was taking care of my as usual. Grandma and grandpa was out at a casino, and daddy was 'out with a friend'. As per usual, I was crying and mom was trying to figure out why. What really happened was that she gave me the wrong type of milk. I was around 18 months old, I think, and I was very sickly. So I cried and cried because the milk mom gave me was wrong and hurted my tummy.
Being only 21 at the time, she threw me on the bed. Threw. Threw me. A baby no older than 18 months old.
My mom was super stressed at the time, doing this and that and trying to keep father in check. But when she threw me on that bed, when I completely stopped crying, she raised hell. My mom panicked, jumping from place to place, grabbing me and trying to call dad. She went into the car and drove like a mad woman to the nearest hospital.
The rest went by quickly. I was hospitalized for a couple of days, the doc telling mom that the reason I was crying was because that I had the wrong milk and that I'm fine at the moment (although I had a slow pulse that grew normal during the next few days). The doctor even said that she needed to relax and calm down. She was flickering her eyes like she's having a dream, her body was shaking like a leaf. She was scared for my life.
And I was uncouncious the whole ride.
To tell you the truth, I'm happy that happened. 'Cause if it didn't, mom would be probably push me up for adoption and stay with dad. Which reminds me. Wanna know what happened while mom was busy worrying for my life?
Drinking at the bar.
Promise me this, reader, that you'll never drink. Or even become an alcoholic. Please don't. My dad completely lost me, and I've given him so many chances to redeem himself. But this time, I can't give him anything else anymore. I know forgiveness must be essential, but I give up. I'm not 'forgiving' him anymore.
What's the point if I wait for someone who I know will never come? And I believed in him. That he'll start over, and start acting like a father.
But no.
He strikes all my hopes down with just an arrow. I'm done. That's it.
He's no longer my 'dad'. He has no right to be called that anyway. A father is someone who is biologically related to you, but the person who raised you into who you are.
If I had anything else to say, mom would be my father and my mother. (lol)
After that incident at the hospital, she spoiled me rotten. And I loved, absolutely loved, the attention she gave me as a child. It was funny, too. She would record me dancing and shaking my bum when every I hear the t.v. play some funky music. She would sing me lullabies in vientamese. She would even help me sign up for sports I want to do or go to the concerts I'm in (when she has time).
If anything, my mom is the stronger woman I've ever met. And I love her.
I kinda feel lucky now... ehehehehe...
I wonder, when I grow up and have my own family, that my children will think the same as I did with my mother...?
Ah, well... if I'll ever catch the golden fish for me...
---Purimaaa
But I'm also a let's-hold-it-all-in type of person. Kinda like Benvolio in Romeo and Juliet. But with boobs and no dick. (I'm pretty sure Benvolio is a man...)
But moving on!
I need to rant. There are things in my life I can't understand and I just can't take it anymore. Truth is, I use to have this little diary, where I would put all sort of funky things in it, writing in it like as if the diary itself was my secret messenger to a secret friend. The bad thing was that my mom read it.
Uh.
EVER HEARD OF PRIVACY?
Yes, I'm a teen and I'm probably doing through some funky phase or whatevers, but I want privacy. I'm growing up and I don't wanna be babied. And don't you know how annoying it is that parents say you're too young to do this, but too old to do that? Like you're old enough to do chores on your own, but you're too young to watch a PG13 movie type of thing.
I have nothing against not watching an R rated movie or even doing chores, but privacy is privacy! And my diary is one of them! My mom read it, and even wrote in it. She even talked to me about it. Now look, I'm just writing in it to vent out some anger I had before I came to my senses. The whole purpose I like keeping a diary is to keep secrets and maybe one day look back on all the weird and funny "conversations" I wrote in my diary.
BUT NO.
BECAUSE APPARENTLY, PRIVACY DOESN'T EXSIST IN ANY PARENT'S DICTIONARY.
Here's the truth, I can't keep bottling these feelings up. And I sure as hell ain't gonna express them (damn slipped into a country accent... =.=").
I don't wanna express myself because I'm sick and tired of people asking why I act like that or give me that dirty look.
And I can't keep bottling these feelings up, because just like they said in Healthy Living, it's bad for you.
Ranting online is the only privacy I can get so far. And nothing bad has happened. Everything's normal, no one's coming up to me asking to take down my blog, and I'm not calling out to anyone.
I feel tired and exhausted when I lock my anger down. I'm not assertive, but passive. I'm not extroverted, but introverted. I'm not funky or cool or outstanding. NO.
I'm like the female version of Canada from Hetalia!
So what the bloody hell? (...my English accent... =.=") I rant. And rant. And rant.
To rant or not to rant. Is my question.
I wonder if there's a fan-made Canada blog...?
Moving on...
So, I always lock my anger down. To the very last drop. The VERY. LAST. DROP.
And I exert the here in this little blog called, "Because I Need to Rant".
I'm not a bad person, which is pretty funky 'cause I myself can't tell I'm a good little angel or the evil devil. But I swear I try my best to make everyone my friend. Albeit, it's difficult 'cause the thought of being the one to initiate the conversation is pretty scary. I'm not like that. I tried starting the convo, but it just goes down the drain when they start making the air awkward by not answering me, or never even glancing at me.
Uh. Hello? I'm standing right here and I'm talking to you. Aren't you being alittle bit rude to me? Huh? HUH?!
...
*deep breathe*
I know that people have a hard time making a good convo towards me, but I do make an effort to talk to other people. Because I love to talk. I'm a girl, and I was originally extroverted (I was bullied as a child, so I became introverted) and I just LOVE talking. I don't give a damn if it's about a hot sexy guy or even about books. I just need some sort of communication.
'Cause that's what I lack in life.
I lack communication. In fact, it a huge problem to me and other people. Y'know how teachers just love group work? Well, huzzah! I'm in a group project!
Wonderful!
Truly spectacular!
Annnnndddddd they don't talk much...
Ughh, I worry about my generation. No, screw that, I'm already worried. Most of the kids I've met were so... troubled. I mean, I'm not saying they're bad people, just... people with very bad experiences. I've met nice people, mean people, bitches, lovers, assholes, idiots, morons, nerds, geeks, sport-fanatics, lesbians and gays, and all the colors of the rainbow. Hell, I even met gangsters (or... that was how they referred themselves as...).
But each and everyone of them, I enjoyed talking to. They atleast talked to me, and I can tell they enjoyed talking to me, too. And they would often talk about their family, their friends, their past. And it was either the good life filled with money, or the dark road with parents doing drugs and other bad stuff.
I'm not saying, they're bad people. They grew up badly. We are children, and either we like it or not, we hold the future. And isn't it the adult's responsibility to take care of that child?
My God, looking back on those people, the parents were mostly the cause of the child's misfortune. My dad, the biggest douche bag you've ever met, beat my mother nearly to death while having sex with her. Do you think it's rape even they are married? I think so. And I was only 5 at the time. It was the first time I saw it happen, or maybe it happened for a long time, and I was too young to remember.
To tell you the truth, I was the downfall of their marriage. They were happy, until they got married, and made a baby named lil' Purima (stated in my older posts, I'm not revealing my real name). My dad started drinking more and more, while mom started to love me less and less. She was very hesitant on having me. And I was unaware of this. I was growing in her belly and, now, knowing all about the growth of a baby inside a women, is pretty disturbing. Saying that I was the one who did that funky kicking in her stomach and eating some of the coffee mom drank. *shivers*
So, when I was officially brought into this world, I would cry and cry and cry. I'm pretty sure my tears could put the Mississippi River to shame. I cried when I pooped, when I peed, when I was hungry, when I was sad, or happy, or laughing. And my mom wasn't ready for it.
While momma was taking care of my crying sad and disgusting mess, dad was fooling with other women in a local bar.
A bar.
How can this get any worse? Oh, there's lots to tell.
One day, my mom was taking care of my as usual. Grandma and grandpa was out at a casino, and daddy was 'out with a friend'. As per usual, I was crying and mom was trying to figure out why. What really happened was that she gave me the wrong type of milk. I was around 18 months old, I think, and I was very sickly. So I cried and cried because the milk mom gave me was wrong and hurted my tummy.
Being only 21 at the time, she threw me on the bed. Threw. Threw me. A baby no older than 18 months old.
My mom was super stressed at the time, doing this and that and trying to keep father in check. But when she threw me on that bed, when I completely stopped crying, she raised hell. My mom panicked, jumping from place to place, grabbing me and trying to call dad. She went into the car and drove like a mad woman to the nearest hospital.
The rest went by quickly. I was hospitalized for a couple of days, the doc telling mom that the reason I was crying was because that I had the wrong milk and that I'm fine at the moment (although I had a slow pulse that grew normal during the next few days). The doctor even said that she needed to relax and calm down. She was flickering her eyes like she's having a dream, her body was shaking like a leaf. She was scared for my life.
And I was uncouncious the whole ride.
To tell you the truth, I'm happy that happened. 'Cause if it didn't, mom would be probably push me up for adoption and stay with dad. Which reminds me. Wanna know what happened while mom was busy worrying for my life?
Drinking at the bar.
Promise me this, reader, that you'll never drink. Or even become an alcoholic. Please don't. My dad completely lost me, and I've given him so many chances to redeem himself. But this time, I can't give him anything else anymore. I know forgiveness must be essential, but I give up. I'm not 'forgiving' him anymore.
What's the point if I wait for someone who I know will never come? And I believed in him. That he'll start over, and start acting like a father.
But no.
He strikes all my hopes down with just an arrow. I'm done. That's it.
He's no longer my 'dad'. He has no right to be called that anyway. A father is someone who is biologically related to you, but the person who raised you into who you are.
If I had anything else to say, mom would be my father and my mother. (lol)
After that incident at the hospital, she spoiled me rotten. And I loved, absolutely loved, the attention she gave me as a child. It was funny, too. She would record me dancing and shaking my bum when every I hear the t.v. play some funky music. She would sing me lullabies in vientamese. She would even help me sign up for sports I want to do or go to the concerts I'm in (when she has time).
If anything, my mom is the stronger woman I've ever met. And I love her.
I kinda feel lucky now... ehehehehe...
I wonder, when I grow up and have my own family, that my children will think the same as I did with my mother...?
Ah, well... if I'll ever catch the golden fish for me...
---Purimaaa
Monday, July 9, 2012
*Insert Ranting Title*
Okay, here it goes.
Mom and I want to kick dad out of the house. He's just freeloading us and even though he has a job, he doesn't support any of us. He doesn't pay the bills, much less take care of things, and lounges in the living room all day with his laptop (probably tryin' to make some ladies come for him; that old geezer). Mom is already working as hard as she can, with the hard-ass money, and he takes it away. Saying something between the lines of, "Oh, I'm just keeping it safe so you don't spend it away carelessly." Careless my ass, he can go fly a f*cking kite if all he does is 'keeping it safe'. It's no doubt he's spending mom's money on beer, smokes, and other useless shit. He also uses mom's money to buy food to feed himself. Seriously, wth? I'm also starving in case you didn't notice my ribs poking out (thank God there's still rice in my house. Kinda wish I can use the stove to cook. Can't cook any scrambled eggs 'cause it's dad's food).
Oh, my birthday's coming up in two days. Wonderful.
Can't really say weither or not I'll have a party; we do have a pool and a picnic area near our apartment, but like I said, I'm not really sure if I'll use it for the party (or that I'll ever have any type of celebration on the day I was born). Anyways, that's pretty much it. Hopefully dad will move out(his friend said there's a job that he want him to take; I wish he would owo).
Chao chao!
--Pu-ri-ma
Mom and I want to kick dad out of the house. He's just freeloading us and even though he has a job, he doesn't support any of us. He doesn't pay the bills, much less take care of things, and lounges in the living room all day with his laptop (probably tryin' to make some ladies come for him; that old geezer). Mom is already working as hard as she can, with the hard-ass money, and he takes it away. Saying something between the lines of, "Oh, I'm just keeping it safe so you don't spend it away carelessly." Careless my ass, he can go fly a f*cking kite if all he does is 'keeping it safe'. It's no doubt he's spending mom's money on beer, smokes, and other useless shit. He also uses mom's money to buy food to feed himself. Seriously, wth? I'm also starving in case you didn't notice my ribs poking out (thank God there's still rice in my house. Kinda wish I can use the stove to cook. Can't cook any scrambled eggs 'cause it's dad's food).
Oh, my birthday's coming up in two days. Wonderful.
Can't really say weither or not I'll have a party; we do have a pool and a picnic area near our apartment, but like I said, I'm not really sure if I'll use it for the party (or that I'll ever have any type of celebration on the day I was born). Anyways, that's pretty much it. Hopefully dad will move out(his friend said there's a job that he want him to take; I wish he would owo).
Chao chao!
--Pu-ri-ma
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Seats Taken [ranting timeee~]
Okay, don't you hate it when you have to get up from your seat and then it's taken by somebody else? Like say you're in a movie theatre and there's this one really good spot, so you asked your friend(s) to save you that spot because you went to get some food/drink or go to the bathroom. Once you come back from whatever you're doing, your spot is taken, either by your friend(which is completely fine) or a complete stranger you never met before.
Yeah, happened to me today, except in my moms work place. She works at a second-class nail salon, so there's this VIP lounge where most of the workers chill out in. Usually, I'm the one in the room(television, sound proof; it's like my room, only with out the bed and my clothes scattered over the place), but apparently the costumers seem to enjoy seein me being kicked out so they can take my spot. Pisses me off when they speak behind my back, commenting about my clothes. Honestly, what a pain. That's pretty much it for now. Rant ya' later. Chao.
--P R I M A
Yeah, happened to me today, except in my moms work place. She works at a second-class nail salon, so there's this VIP lounge where most of the workers chill out in. Usually, I'm the one in the room(television, sound proof; it's like my room, only with out the bed and my clothes scattered over the place), but apparently the costumers seem to enjoy seein me being kicked out so they can take my spot. Pisses me off when they speak behind my back, commenting about my clothes. Honestly, what a pain. That's pretty much it for now. Rant ya' later. Chao.
--P R I M A
Internet
This morning dad told me that his Internet keeps shutting down. Mom though it was a virus, and she was right. So now because of this stupid virus, I had to spend about an hour or so to try and fix it.
T R I E D.
And failed.
I don't know these things. Atleast my laptop isn't screwed up... Yet. :D
So yeah, here I am on my iPod(that has Internet; God I'm spoiled) tellin you guys about my morning.
Moral of the story; try not getting a virus in your Internet. Trust me, don't waste the however-many hours I wasted on dad's laptop. Bleh, that's pretty much it. Chao.
--P R I M A
T R I E D.
And failed.
I don't know these things. Atleast my laptop isn't screwed up... Yet. :D
So yeah, here I am on my iPod(that has Internet; God I'm spoiled) tellin you guys about my morning.
Moral of the story; try not getting a virus in your Internet. Trust me, don't waste the however-many hours I wasted on dad's laptop. Bleh, that's pretty much it. Chao.
--P R I M A
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Father [letter rant]
Dear dad,
I wish you would stop saying I'm a bad child. Compared to others, you don't see me smoking or drinking, much less have a boyfriend. Honestly, who cares if I'm on the Internet most of the time? I have no friends to hang out with; and even if I did, I wouldn't beable to leave because I don't have the key to the house. I hardly walk past the door throughout the year, only if I needed to, I would return home safe and sound. So, tell me why you tell lies, threaten me to kick me out, and say the most horriblest things in my face? It's not like I wished to be your daughter, too. Atleast I know it's the beer that makes you talk. Thank God and whoever out there that I didn't live with you when I was a child. I'm not being the best straight A+ girl, or the kind that would spend all of her time with the family, but you're not the greatest father ever. Just know that the next birthday I have, I expect nothing from you.
-- your daughter, Prima.
(Sorry guys if it made you feel sad about me. I'm okay with mom anyways. Had to write this, just to feel alittle better. You may expect me writing something like this on most nights. That's when dad comes home and drinks alcohol the most.)
I wish you would stop saying I'm a bad child. Compared to others, you don't see me smoking or drinking, much less have a boyfriend. Honestly, who cares if I'm on the Internet most of the time? I have no friends to hang out with; and even if I did, I wouldn't beable to leave because I don't have the key to the house. I hardly walk past the door throughout the year, only if I needed to, I would return home safe and sound. So, tell me why you tell lies, threaten me to kick me out, and say the most horriblest things in my face? It's not like I wished to be your daughter, too. Atleast I know it's the beer that makes you talk. Thank God and whoever out there that I didn't live with you when I was a child. I'm not being the best straight A+ girl, or the kind that would spend all of her time with the family, but you're not the greatest father ever. Just know that the next birthday I have, I expect nothing from you.
-- your daughter, Prima.
(Sorry guys if it made you feel sad about me. I'm okay with mom anyways. Had to write this, just to feel alittle better. You may expect me writing something like this on most nights. That's when dad comes home and drinks alcohol the most.)
RantRantRant INTRO!
Yo! First... blog? Honestly, I'm never up-to-date. I'm always busy with FB. And Farmville. Also pissing people off when I sent a Farmville invite. :D So fun.
Anyways, w00t~! The first thing I wanna talk about, is how bored I am. And I'm so not excited for the evening once dad comes home. Dad comes home around 4pm and does whatever he wants, not bothering to spare a glance at me. When Mom comes home, he rants. About me. Being lazy.
...
DUDE, IT'S SUMMER. I'm supposed to be lazy.
Moving on from that... I really need to update my stories on fanfiction.net. Especially Incubus Love! (that one has been on my mind for the whole week; I don't know what to put in the next chapter.) Gahhhhh, guess I'll have to start from somewhere...
Maa, maa, I guess that's it... Oh, I wonder what song should I cover? I don't have a good voice, but I can sing atleast. Maybe I should sing Apologize? Or maybe What Hurts The Most? All well, guess I'll try both. That's all I can rant for today.
Chao
--Prima
Anyways, w00t~! The first thing I wanna talk about, is how bored I am. And I'm so not excited for the evening once dad comes home. Dad comes home around 4pm and does whatever he wants, not bothering to spare a glance at me. When Mom comes home, he rants. About me. Being lazy.
...
DUDE, IT'S SUMMER. I'm supposed to be lazy.
Moving on from that... I really need to update my stories on fanfiction.net. Especially Incubus Love! (that one has been on my mind for the whole week; I don't know what to put in the next chapter.) Gahhhhh, guess I'll have to start from somewhere...
Maa, maa, I guess that's it... Oh, I wonder what song should I cover? I don't have a good voice, but I can sing atleast. Maybe I should sing Apologize? Or maybe What Hurts The Most? All well, guess I'll try both. That's all I can rant for today.
Chao
--Prima
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