Dark Thoughts That Loom

I sometimes wonder who I am in my story. Everyone has a story, but what character?

Am I the princess? Or perhaps the queen? Maybe I'm a knight or a perhaps a maid? What will my plot be, or do I even have a plot?

My head hurts... I really need some sleep...

And It's All About Me-me-me-me-meee

-----------• × • A L L A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

Name: Mancy
Single or taken: (forever)Single
Gender: Female
Birthday: July 11th
Sign: Crab/Cancer/the emotional bitch of the zodiac
Hair color: Brown
Eye color: Chocolate (my eyes look delicious XD)
Height: 5'4'' I think
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight (If I was a guy, I'd be gay.)

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes?: I don't really know. The mall?
Favorite designer?: None
What is your sexiest outfit?: Pshhh I'm sexy enough without my clothes (Jk, my big pink t-shirt that says, 'Get A Life' with a picture of a mushroom from Super Mario XD)
What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans (preferably bootcut) and a T-Shirt (big, large, and comfy)
What do you usually wear?:  Jeans and a T-shirt lol

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

What kind of shampoo do you use?: Head n' Shoulders. I think. I change shampoos alot.
What are you listening to right now: The Golden Age by The Asteroids Galaxy Tour (I heard this song for the first time on a Heineken beer commercial XD)
Who is the last person that called you?: Maman
How many buddies are online right now?: I don't have any buddies online ;w;
-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

Foods: Shrimp Fried Rice, Ferrero Rotchers (buy this, and I will marry you)
Girls names: Suki, Mancy, Prima, Anabella, and... yeah.
Boys names: Tsuna, Hibari, Gokudera, Yamamoto, Rian, Thomas, Matthew, Arther, Alfred, 
Subjects in school: Art, Music, Math, Literature, Forensics, and possibly even Physiology...

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

Given anyone a bath?: Pets and my little cousins XD
Smoked?: Bleh, why would I want black lungs if I can have pink? 
Bungee jumped?: I WILL WHEN I GET MOAR MONEY! >0<
Made yourself throw up?: I-uh-I uh what?
Skinny dipped?: Which is... uh... no.
Ever been in love?: If I had, I would've had a ring on my finger.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Not really...
Pictured your crush naked?: Well, if it's Tsuna-kun.
Actually seen your crush naked?: Tsuna-kun. Naked. Done.
Cried when someone died?: I'm a CRAB. What do you think?
Lied: Lol I never lief before >w>
Fallen for your best friend?: Huh? My bffs are girls...
Rejected someone?: Yes, and I kinda feel bad because he really did love me
Used someone?: Why use them if I have the awesome me?
Done something you regret?: I don't think I have... 

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Clothes: Blue bootcut jeans, blue retro t-shirt, red/pink fuzzy jacket, tennis shoes, and my lucky blue watch. 
Music: The Golden Age by The Asteroids Galaxy Tour
Smell: Fresh 
Desktop picture: >3> I don't like it, since I'm using my schools computer. 
CD in player: None last time I checked
DVD in player: None

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • ו----------------------

You touched: Uh uh uh uh I think it was Sam
Hugged: Sam
You IMed: Hyu-myo? I think it was Ciera
You yelled at: I never really yell... 
You kissed: My cat this morning. Always give kisses to my cat <3

---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

Understanding: Abit stubborn but yeah XD
Open-minded: I'm Miss Stubborn! I can be at times, but I'm mostly stubborn 
Arrogant: Arrogant... depends.
Insecure: Isn't everyone these days?
Random: Bwaha, depends on who's hanging out with the awesome me.
Hungry: As always. :9
Smart: Lol in some areas. I'm not that smart. Just intelligent in multiple areas that most people don't really exceed in at my age.
Moody: I'm A FREAKIN' AWESOME CRAB. I'm bound to my emotions!
Hard working: No.
Organized: Surprisingly, yes.
Healthy: Psh, nah. Imma be fat when I grow up. XD
Shy: When I'm in a flustered mood.
Difficult: When I'm in a stubborn mood.
Bored easily: I'll be bored at around 12 o'clock.
Obsessed: WITH LITTLE TSUN-TSUN. <3
Angry: Why should I be angry?
Sad: Why should I be sad? o.o
Happy: When I'm in a happy mood XD
Hyper: Not much, but I have my moments. :D
Trusting: Innocent until proven guilty, eh?

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

Kill?: Someone.
Slap?: Someone.
Get really wasted with?: Tsuna <3
Get high with: Tsuna <3
Talk to offline: Offline?
Talk to online: Anyone really.
Sex it up with: Tsuna, and only Tsuna.

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In the morning I: roll of my bed and end up getting a bruise on my hips. And leg. And shoulder. And head. 
Love is: like an apple. If you let it rot, it will rot. But it's still sweet.
Sexual preference: I like gay men. 
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Hair. lol, and then their body types. That's when I use my fujoshi powers to decided either or not he's an uke or a seme.

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

Coke or Pepsi: MTN DEW RULES ALL.
Flowers or candy: Flowers! I like the smell of Lilies <3
Tall or short: Tall and short! Medium is best XD

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

Makes you laugh the most: I haven't been laughing a lot these day ;-;
Makes you smile: lots o'stuff. I enjoy the simple things in life XD
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Tsuna *faints*

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: I'm actually wasting my time on netflix watching Doctor Who and Sherlock (Benedict is fuckin' brilliant)
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes... I don't have a lot of guy friends.
Wish you were younger: Hu-myu... My childhood was pretty disastrous so...
Cry because someone said something to you?: Cry? I nearly made her loose her tooth! ;o;

-----------• × • N U M B E R • × •--------------

Of times I have had my heart broken: Once...?
Of hearts I have broken: Two :I
Of guys I've kissed: One (first bf)
Of girls I've kissed: ...I faintly remember kissing a girl, but I'm not so sure...
Of CD's I own: A buh-gillion (most of them are my moms.
Of scars on my body: A guh-gillion.

Private Matters

I don't really know what to put here lol

I don't normally type up funky things during the weekend because I got nothing interesting going on, usually during winter. Which kinda explains my love-hate for my school. I like to learn, especially from the many classes I take in school.

However...

I get tired really easy, although I don't show it. It's probably because I stay up late during nighttime, and sleep during the daytime. I'm like a nocturnal creature, but in truth, I'm really not.

And I know, I need to be assertive. I bet half of my college money that my Human Behavior teacher would cut me during my monologue and straight up say, "No, you gotta sleep at night. Stop staying up. You're not completing your needs."

My stomach has needs, and so does my body. But I reckon you can't understand that either, considering how much you've been interrupting me. I really hate it when he does that. It's like...

"Hey, how are you--"

"I'm sorry, but go take a seat."

"B-but I was just--"

"Take a seat."

"..."

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. Even during a rush hour during lunch, regular teacher's wouldn't do this! I like it when a teacher DOESN'T interrupt me! For once, I would love it, if I could talk to you in one complete sentence, BEFORE you say your input of the conversation.

I know you're smart, you're older, you're like this therapist that I never really needed. But please, for the love of all conversations I've had in my life,

Stop.

Interrupting.

Me.

I will sulk, and the sulking will grow if you don't do anything about it, and then I will blow up. I will tell you all your faults. I will point out the things that piss me off. I will, literally, point out any known fact in this brain of mine, that you seriously had issues and you're an extrovert, and you won't shut up.

...

I don't care if you're a teacher, or someone older. A person's a person, no matter how small, old, young, or big. How would you like it if I interrupted you? Let's see if you can try to strike back, without using the excuse of being older and being a teacher.

Just because you have a higher power, doesn't mean I don't have allies.

...

Phew. Alright. Well, that was kind of a stupid rant. But he really pisses me off sometimes!

Ugh, imma go eat...

Pokemon White 2

It's so.

CUTE.

The girls in these generation styles are getting cuter, and even more fun to try and cosplay them! XD I've already tried getting White 2's hair style (the one with the chinese buns with pigtails. Really cute!).

Sadly, I cant exactly go out in the world having my hair like this :P It'd be alittle awkward.

So I choose Tepig (named him Tenke) for my beginner pokemon, and I also got Piplup (named him Putters) and I recently captured a Mareep and evolved it into Flaffy (which his name is Mars).

...

The nicknames I gave are just... lol. I fail, alright? XD

Besides, the graphics are really, really good. I wish I had a pokemon adventure. Screw that, I wish pokemon was real in general. It'd be nice to go on adventures, capping out at night, battling and capturing pokemon.

Even thinking about becoming the pokemon master.

But then, it'd be alittle too good to be true. WHICH REMINDS ME.

I had this really cool and funky dream where... well. Let's start at the beginning! ^^

*Dream Mode: Activated. Please proceed with caution*

I was sitting in mom's car, with the heat softly beating against my face. It was really cold outside, and I was freezing, yet it was warm also. I couldn't really complain since I was the one who said that I'll wait in the car. Not to mention, I was completely into the game, Pokemon Mystery Sky Dungeons, to be bothered with the bitter cold.

I wasn't exactly in tuned, or knew what happened next. All I felt was pain, lots of it, around my stomach area. With whatever strength I had inside, I opened my eyes and looked at the broken car that made it's impact on the front of my mom's car. I was consumed with darkness before I heard my mom screaming in the background.

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When I woke up again, I knew. I knew I was dead. I felt cold, colder then the days of November and December. My body was completely numb, although, I couldn't exactly call the form I had a body. I was transparent, and when I tried to pinch myself, I couldn't feel a thing. I thought this is just one of those stupid lucid dreams.

"It's not a dream, young one." I shivered, the air around me, the complete darkness, it became colder. I looked up and saw a figure, a female human. Though, she was out of place. Something about her is unsettling. If anything, she felt like threat to me. It could be that she was slender, and had the curves a man would fall for. Her hair was a nice solid black color, and I was almost jealous at how it made the women seem more mature than she hoped.

"Who are you?" I asked, surprised that my voice sounded really broken and dry. The female half-smiled, as if she had been asked this question multiple times.

"Some would call me Shinigami, some would call me the Angel of Darkness," She spoke, calmly walking towards me. I felt shivers run through my spine, "However, I'm commonly known as...

Death."

I swallowed thickly, even though that didn't calm the jumping nerves in my system. I was about to run. I didn't want to die. I still had a life. I didn't fall in love yet, have a family, or have any sort of experience yet. I wanted to live again.

"A-are you...?"

"Yes, I shall be delivering you."

"Where... then...?"

She put on a thoughtful look, her dark black hair making her eyes glitter softly. "You have not experience life just yet, and your death had been untimely."

I felt my hands and feet grow slightly warm, "You mean, I get to live again?" I glanced at my feet, and back at her. She made that half-smile again.

"Yes, but not here."

"Here...?" I felt my shoulders droop, the warmth that touched my feet and hands were growing. I didn't mind, and ignored it.

"Somewhere else, little child." She pointed towards the darkness, and a golden light cracked its way into this cold world. I shield my eyes, turning away from the light. "In there, will you beable to live again."

"I-... Is that Heaven...?" I questioned. She shook her head.

"It is another universe, another world," Death spoke, the light now shaping itself. It looked like a door, making more golden rays fill the cold room I was in as it opened wider. "You will be reborn. Into this world."

I was about to ask her more, but failed to as wind started to blow towards my being. I wanted to turn away from the light, but it felt so warm, I didn't want to leave at all. As the light from beyond the doors touched my soul, Death's voice resounded as she disappeared.

"But be aware, child. You will not remember anything from your previous life.

You will live anew. 

And when it is time, 

I shall take you to where you will be.

Until then, goodbye little one.

You are reborn."

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Okay, so it wasn't that talkative or detailed, but you got the gist of it, right? I was reborned into a different universe, a completely different world.

And where was I reborned?

In the KHR world. *fangirl squeal*

I don't know why, but apparently I become Tsuna's assistant, and would often have sarcastic fights with Gokudera, who's always complaining that Tsuna only needs one right-hand man. I would scoff and make a sarcastic note that I'm the one who helps the cook out and that I could easily have him ingest some... ehehe.

SO, it turned out that I was currently 21 years old at the time. Single, and wanted a relationship. However, I was hoping it was Tsunayoshi-kun. It was like shmowzow. Cupid struck a cord in my heart when I first saw little Tunaboy. XD

I wasn't very talkative (like me) very artistic (like me lol) and had a thing for chocolate (this won the gold medal XD). The only thing that wasn't similar to my previous life was that I was older and had this...

Mysterious personality.

I was more puzzling than Mukuro. And he's very mysterious. I also had a killer body. Reaaally sexy, but not as sexy as Death. XD I feel awkwarrrdddd lol

Oh, just seconds ago, Joke was talking to me. Y'know about the two people I mentioned last time, Jake and Joke? Well, it seems as if Joke is interested in me. He said that I look kinda lonely.

I was about to have my heart burst at the moment, because I am really, truthfully lonely. ;A;

Joke seems like an interesting character. He's very extroverted, and he's also pretty smart. He's also little weird, but then again, it's probably a normal thing for him. Plus it's very rare that someone had talk to me, especially a guy of all people.

IT'S JUST SO FREAKIN' WEIRD.

I hope Joke doesn't do this again to me. My heart can only beat fast for so long ;v;

...

I feel like playing pokemon now. ovo

Earth/Space Science

Dear Lord help me ace this class, 'cause I always suck at  science. Which is ironic. Some people say that if you're good in math, then you're good in science and not in literature. Oh-ho. How wrong they are. I currently have a D in Earth/Space Science. Probably because I don't understand the topic very well. I admit, I'm stupid and slow. I prefer things being broken down, but I'm guessing this school is letting us do the work.

Don't get it? Here. Let's try this. Imagine a pond of dirty water. It's brown and muddy, and you wouldn't even dare step in unless you were the type of person to get down and dirty(Not that kind of way). But you've heard that at the bottom of this pond, there are things you have always wanted: Either it be your dreams of becoming famous, to being fairly-well knowledgable about the world(And even having the chance of becoming smarter than your parents). You, obviously, want to reach that goal, but you can't unless you understand how to reach the bottom without drowning like a cat. This is where the teachers come in. The teach you how to swim. But only on the surface of the water. Like doing butterfly strokes or whaterevers. They don't teach you how to dive underwater to retrieved the treasure. No, they just let you know what to do on the surface. And then they expect you to understand how to dive in the water as if you already knew it all along.

'Excuse me, but aren't you gonna teach me how to dive?' I guess not. Seeing as how I don't understand very well. Usually teachers would lead you the way to success on step at a time. Well, not this school.

'You're on your own, kid.' Guess I better start learning how to dive in the subject myself if no one is gonna help me. I don't blame them. In this world, they are many successful people, and yet they never once thank the teachers/staff/families/friends that helped them along the way. Despite being that you are the one that personally reached your goal, just know that you couldn't do it completely by yourself(I don't think this applies to everyone, just most people in general).

...

Ha, we just had a little journey moment there, eh? :D The works of my mind is so weird. It's fine if you don't understand it. You'll just have to dive in there on your own. :P

CIAO~!
-SCIENTIFIC PRIMA BOSS- OUT!