I'm Just Not A Good Girlfriend

In a way where I don't return my affections. I mean, I don't cheat or go bat-shit crazy. I just... Flat-out become the Queen.

Which is unfair because I unknowingly place my boyfriend in the servant aisle.

I should really stop that. That's not how relationships work. And I also have to stop boyfriend-zoning guys I've never talked to either!

Or well, I think its crush-zoning them first, and then after having a chat (more like a greeting ugh), I end up boyfriend-zoning them.

Like friend-zoning can go take a hike; my main problem is acting all flirty towards guys who don't have any intimite feelings for me.

Sheesh, I talk big but in truth I'm still a child.

Am I great or what? *eye roll*

A Friend I Call Fox

There's this girl I met online (on dA.com you idjits) and she's really awesome. >w< I actually feel more loved around her than from the people in real life. At first, we were just poking around, wonder what we had in common.

And we have alot of things in common.

Our friendship became escalated to total awesome weirdos who are more awesome together than being awesome alone. She's 18, and lives in Maine. Oh, she also said today she was going to a new sushi shop in Bragan, Maine called 'Ninja Sushi'. I can't believe they named it that; they must be truly japanese. XD

I hope she finds a boyfriend. She's a really nice person, and she's just. Too. Awesome.

Well, I'm probably calling her that because she always cuddles my face off whenever we rp (in a non-perverted way; I meant it as a game/geek/otaku way). Plus, we have this awesome plan of one day ruling the whole world with our awesomeness own a café. oUo

Not like ruling the world is a bad idea... Ufufufu~

So, I guess I should be feeling more positive, but I just can't. I haven't seen him again... And I feel a bit lonely. I can only talk to Fox when I get on dA.com... I don't have any other communicative connections to chat with Fox; if I did, I wouldn't be typing this.

I really miss her already. She's the only person I can proceed to be a creepy weird girl online without having to be 'polite' and hold back my thoughts or views of the world. Plus, she's always giving me hugs. Like, proper hugs not sure if jumping on me and cuddling my face off counts as a proper hug, but it beats any of there other 'hugs' I get from my other friends.

What should I do now...? I can't talk to Fox, I still have a stupid crush on PT-asshole, and I'm already feeling like this week is dead.


*weeps* I-I want to cuddles someone now... qnq

How Annoying

I really don't understand the... well. I'll name them Jake and Joke. They're these two guys in my classroom, Human Behaviors, that are just plain...

...

Well, they're not exactly annoying, but rather really scary to me. And now Spade's ex is teasing me also =.=

Is it a habit that guys like them (they're really smart. Fuck.) makes fun of little introverted girls like me? I prefer it if they would leave me alone. They never noticed me, so why now?

The way they approach me is the annoying part. Now I don't really know what to think of them.

I'll just leave them alone.

Those assbutts.

Feeling A Tad Bit Left Out

I feel alittle bit left out...

...

SCREW THAT, I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN WARPED TO A WHOLE 'NOTHER UNIVERSE! Spade and I are starting to be close friends, BUT

EVERY

SINGLE

TIME

SOMEONE INTERFERES OUR FRIENDSHIP. Either it is my boyfriend, or her friends(which consists of guys). Spade and I are closer than before, I can say, but I'm not on the same level as her. I'm more comfortable with being around her, but that's it.

That's all.

I know it's weird, but I can sense what level of friendship I'm at, and I'm currently at level 2 or being a complete friend with Spade. BUT NO. THOSE ANNOYING PESTS ARE IN THE WAY. Look, don't take it the wrong way, but I hate, and I mean ABSOLUTELY hate, being on level 2.

It's where I'm comfortable near a person to talk freely, but I have to be polite as well.

AND I'VE BEEN ON THIS LEVEL FOR FAR TOO LONG. Much. Too. Long. I'm even on this level with my boyfriend also. I'm his girl, but I'm also being polite.

UGH. SCREW THIS. I AM NOW PROCEEDING TO GO TO THE NEXT LEVEL.

Must... defeat... pests...

--Annoyed Purima